Wednesday, August 10, 2011

The Sad News...

The time that I am writing this is six in the morning.

I haven't disclosed a lot of medical information of my pregnancy to a lot of people.

Just that I am on slight bed rest and I have asked you to pray for me.-

I have definitely felt your prayers!!

And I thank you so much for them-it means the world to me that you would take time for little me!!

Well, here is some of what has been going on and will go on:

My doctors have had some issues with the baby that I carried for the past 10 weeks and 4 days.

They told me that chances were highly likely that I was going to miscarry.

They told me that they can perform a D&C and that they wanted to do it quickly-actually today.

I told them that I wanted to talk it over with my husband

and maybe I could wait and make my decision soon.

They said that this was fine.

Being nervous and everything about making this very important decision,

I told my husband and he told me to do what I thought best.

I prayed to God to show me what to do...because a life is a life-and I would hate it

if I caused that life to pass away.

And last night he answered my prayers....

I started to bleed a little and have cramping.

so I am starting to have the miscarriage and it is by God's hand.

As odd as it may sound-this gives me such peace!! 
  
Right now in the wee morning hours I am praying for guidance for these doctors,

as they are going to preform this surgery on me.

I am waiting for my family to wake up so that we can go to the hospital.

I feel pain but I feel peace at the same time.

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 So once again-I ask you to pray for me.

It will be and is a tough time at this time.

I don't think that I can even describe the loss that I feel.

I do know that everything will be fine and at this time God will carry me through this

to the "other side";

and then I can look back and see what it is that He has taught me; 

and how He has helped me to grow in my walk with Him.

This is a part of my life that I might not understand-

but I want it to bring God glory through it all!!

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Psalm 61:2

"From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock

that is higher than I."

Job 1:21a

"the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD."

I had first read Job 40-41 and then finished here: 

Job 42:1-5

"1 Then Job answered the LORD, and said,

2 I know that thou canst do every thing,

and that no thought can be withholden from thee.
 
3 Who is he that hideth counsel without knowledge?

therefore have I uttered that I understood not;

things too wonderful for me, which I knew not.

4 hear, I beseech thee, and I will speak:

I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto me.

5 I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear:

but now mine eye seeth thee."


Psalm 30:1-12
I will extol thee, O LORD; for thou hast lifted me up, and hast not made my foes to rejoice over me.
2 O LORD my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.
3 O LORD, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.
4 Sing unto the LORD, O ye saints of his, and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.
5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.
6 And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved.
7 LORD, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong: thou didst hide thy face, and I was troubled.
8 I cried to thee, O LORD; and unto the LORD I made supplication.
9 What profit is there in my blood, when I go down to the pit? Shall the dust praise thee? shall it declare thy truth?
10 Hear, O LORD, and have mercy upon me: LORD, be thou my helper.
11 Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness;
12 To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever.

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 And I am sure that there are so many other verses that I know of that I can put in this post

and I am sure that I am going to find more along the way; but I will stop at this moment/

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Thank you so much for bearing with me through this post.

And thank you so much for those who have prayed!!!

I have felt your love! Thank you!!!

7 Lovely Comments:

Michelle said...

Praying for you. I know how hard it is. Glad that you're finding peace in it.

Alison @ Under the Big Oak Tree said...

I'm so sorry. Hugs.
I'll keep you (and your family) in my prayers. I'm glad you are able to find peace and that God made that difficult decision for you.

Hugs.

Allison Beatty said...

Rest in the peace that he promises us. The peace that passes our understanding. I love you, kelly jo.

Tiffany said...

Praying for you Kelly Jo, and the family. Phil 1:12 is another good verse that I have been using! "But I would ye should understand, brethren, that the things which happened unto me have fallen out rather unto the furtherance of the gospel;" I don't know how or when, but I know God will allow you to help others turn to Him because of your faithfulness through this trial.

Joanna Crilly said...

Kelly Jo, you have chosen wonderful verses. They show everyone what you truly believe about God, and that your faith in Him is strong. What a blessing!
I will be praying for you, as the Lord lays you on my heart.
Joanna

Amber said...

I am 10 weeks and 3 days pregnant and this post was hard to read. You are such a strong woman, but sometimes you don't have to be (if that makes sense). I know you'll have lots of love and support from your family to help you through this. I hope you recovery quickly--physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Michelle said...

My heart goes out to you- I've had 3 miscarriages and the pain you are going through both physically and emotionally is unbearable I'm sure. Stay strong and know that God has an amazing plan! It's just hard to see what it is right now.
I'm so sorry this is happening to you and your family.