The time that I am writing this is six in the morning.
I haven't disclosed a lot of medical information of my pregnancy to a lot of people.
Just that I am on slight bed rest and I have asked you to pray for me.-
I have definitely felt your prayers!!
And I thank you so much for them-it means the world to me that you would take time for little me!!
Well, here is some of what has been going on and will go on:
My doctors have had some issues with the baby that I carried for the past 10 weeks and 4 days.
They told me that chances were highly likely that I was going to miscarry.
They told me that they can perform a D&C and that they wanted to do it quickly-actually today.
I told them that I wanted to talk it over with my husband
and maybe I could wait and make my decision soon.
They said that this was fine.
Being nervous and everything about making this very important decision,
I told my husband and he told me to do what I thought best.
I prayed to God to show me what to do...because a life is a life-and I would hate it
if I caused that life to pass away.
And last night he answered my prayers....
I started to bleed a little and have cramping.
so I am starting to have the miscarriage and it is by God's hand.
As odd as it may sound-this gives me such peace!!
Right now in the wee morning hours I am praying for guidance for these doctors,
as they are going to preform this surgery on me.
I am waiting for my family to wake up so that we can go to the hospital.
I feel pain but I feel peace at the same time.
So once again-I ask you to pray for me.
It will be and is a tough time at this time.
I don't think that I can even describe the loss that I feel.
I do know that everything will be fine and at this time God will carry me through this
to the "other side";
and then I can look back and see what it is that He has taught me;
and how He has helped me to grow in my walk with Him.
This is a part of my life that I might not understand-
but I want it to bring God glory through it all!!
"From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock
that is higher than I."
"the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD."
I had first read Job 40-41 and then finished here:
"1 Then Job answered the LORD, and said,
2 I know that thou canst do every thing,
and that no thought can be withholden from thee.
3 Who is he that hideth counsel without knowledge?
therefore have I uttered that I understood not;
things too wonderful for me, which I knew not.
4 hear, I beseech thee, and I will speak:
I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto me.
5 I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear:
but now mine eye seeth thee."
I will extol thee, O LORD; for thou hast lifted me up, and hast not made my foes to rejoice over me.
2 O LORD my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.
3 O LORD, thou hast brought up my soul from the grave: thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.
4 Sing unto the LORD, O ye saints of his, and give thanks at the remembrance of his holiness.
5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.
6 And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved.
7 LORD, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong: thou didst hide thy face, and I was troubled.
8 I cried to thee, O LORD; and unto the LORD I made supplication.
9 What profit is there in my blood, when I go down to the pit? Shall the dust praise thee? shall it declare thy truth?
10 Hear, O LORD, and have mercy upon me: LORD, be thou my helper.
11 Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness;
12 To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever.
And I am sure that there are so many other verses that I know of that I can put in this post
and I am sure that I am going to find more along the way; but I will stop at this moment/
Thank you so much for bearing with me through this post.
And thank you so much for those who have prayed!!!
I have felt your love! Thank you!!!